In the new issue of VIBE magazine superstar Mary J Blige confirms what 50 Cent stated when he said, “People like to see Mary in pain.” Blige admits…. “When I took the chance to show people I can be happy, I lost a million of my fans. I was like Ć¢ā¬ĖIĆ¢ā¬ā¢m gonna have to lose yaĆ¢ā¬ā¢ll in order for us to live, because if I keep going down this dark hole, weĆ¢ā¬ā¢re all gonna die together. IĆ¢ā¬ā¢m gonna slit my wrists or take some pills, and itĆ¢ā¬ā¢s gonna be over.”